Saturday, April 26, 2008

A Good One

i am: my father's daughter--both my earthly and my heavenly fathers.
i think: too much--I cannot sleep or focus when my brain is turning (just like my dad).
i know: when God feels far away, I have moved, not Him.
i want: to be a good wife, mom, daughter, friend, sister
i have: everything I need for life and godliness, even though I don't always live like it (2 Peter 1)
i wish: I could soak up every moment when my children, that I could slow the clock and just enjoy them.
i hate: my lack of discipline
i miss: my sister-in-law and nephew, who just went back to New York
i fear: nothing. For I am convinced that neither death nor life nor angels nor principalities, nor things present nor things to come nor powers, nor life nor death nor any other created thing will be able to separate us from the love of God who is in Christ Jesus our Lord. If God is with me, who can stand against me?
i feel: deeply, strongly, my own pain and that of others. It eats at me, and I have a hard time getting over hurt.
i hear: the washing machine. When is it not running? And Pride and Prejudice, it makes me think of Kris.
i smell: tomorrow's lunch. It's in the crock pot.
i crave: routine for my kids, and I am so horrible at establishing it.
i search: for the right way to handle situations. 
i wonder: what my kids are thinking. I wish I could climb into their minds.
i regret: many years of hurting someone I love.
i love: my God, my family, my country, my freedom, and really good coffee and dark chocolate--in that order.
i ache: when I know I have been impatient with my children. 
i care: about people. it gets messy.
i always: nothing. I cannot do things the same all the time. sigh.
i am not: home. This is not my home. Heaven is my home. Hebrews 11: "All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. 14People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. 15If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. 16Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them."
i believe: in my husband. Even when he does not believe in himself.
i dance: to "I Know You" with Jules and to our wedding CD with Dan
i sing: poorly, but often.
i cry: when I think of children needing a home, parents, a family. 
i don't always: remember to feed the dog. Fortunately, the kids usually do.
i fight: hard, loud and with passion.
i write: because it helps me make sense of me.
i never: do things the same way twice. it drives Dan crazy.
i listen: when I am desperate to hear. Usually I am talking too much.
i need: nothing. God has given me all I need. But I want a really good washer and dryer.
i am happy about: learning contentment--then happiness is relative.

Melissa tagged me, now it's your turn. Jeanette, Heather and Meg...you've been tagged.

2 comments:

The Murphy Family said...

Does that mean I have to do it? It will take me WEEKS to fill out!

Heather said...

Okay I arrived late here....should I do this on my blog then? Yeah, I'll do that. You're the first person to ever tag me!